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i haven't been here for awhile as i was having a most difficult time and coz of my final years and some issues at home with my family. Anyways me and Yang we finally have broken up, We haven't seen or spoke much right before chinese new year and i have finally see him around 27th feb for the last time because i have told a lied that i will be going to the Uk in march on 3rd march which i didnt even go there but pretended to go there just to give both of us time and space.
i took the hardest hit and decision to do this and to walk away from this suffocating relationship that it isn't going anywhere and will never be. Im only hurting myself for it and I'm making him guilty for hurting me and for all the things i have done for him and me going through this no where relationship. Yes the day finally came that he whatsapp me about being honest that he can no longer want to be with me or us to continue being like this but as to stay as a friend. While i pretended to be in Uk i at times will msg to asked how is he, hows work and etc. Our conversation wasn't like how it used to be, it became like an awkward stranger now which its from him the way he reply me and the way i gave a response was mood less and hurt so ya this is how he finally being brave to tell me.
[27/03 1:07 am] Yang Tan: I'm fine here. Sorry for not being in touch with you for so many days. [27/03 1:22 am] Yang Tan: No. Actually it's not because of I am busy. Just dunno how to face you. I had think of this many days. I think it's time for me to tell you bravely. I know it's my fault that make you fall in love with me, all the while I feel guilty cos you are too good which you should deserve better than what you have in a relationship. I know that you didn't expect more from me for time being. I wish we should just be friend. I know that you had been trying to help me to pass my hard time. I also know that you went to see my colleagues to discuss with them about my problems. You had done more than you could and I really don't think I deserve it cos I know I can never repay you that much. I hope you can except it that I can't be with you anymore because I have clear with what I want this time. You are a nice girl and you will find someone far better in the future. It's not worth to wasting time on me. Hope you can understand. I'm sorry. [27/03 1:33 am] Yang Tan: You never burden me. You had being the best for me but I can't keep you wait. That's wrong. [27/03 1:34 am] Yang Tan: I hope we can still be friend if you don't mind [27/03 1:34 am] Yang Tan: Sorry for hurting you again
i couldn't feel anything but i knew it will come to like this with him and about us so i couldn't feel anything, i just became numb about it.
Anyways, i have met someone during feb. I had some minor problem with the car side mirror and this person whom i have just met on the chat app he offer to help me and settle the payment. He send me to his friend workshop and to get it settle and that is how me and Kenneth became close afterwards 11th feb my car incident. 12th feb i saw his wechat moment post and i ask him who is it that he is hopping to meet one day and he say it was me, anyways i asked is he ok to meet for lunch since i was free to meet and he decided to meet for dinner and it was like kind of last min so i told him i can't promise about if i can for tonite so ya i tried and i got approve to go dinner so i told him and he went n plan for dinner at Enorme (italian restaurant near jaya33) which was kinda fancy dinner.
it was a great surprised on me coz i never expect the sweet msg and how much effort in finding this place for our first meeting and dinner together, it was a lovely dinner...
i took the hardest hit and decision to do this and to walk away from this suffocating relationship that it isn't going anywhere and will never be. Im only hurting myself for it and I'm making him guilty for hurting me and for all the things i have done for him and me going through this no where relationship. Yes the day finally came that he whatsapp me about being honest that he can no longer want to be with me or us to continue being like this but as to stay as a friend. While i pretended to be in Uk i at times will msg to asked how is he, hows work and etc. Our conversation wasn't like how it used to be, it became like an awkward stranger now which its from him the way he reply me and the way i gave a response was mood less and hurt so ya this is how he finally being brave to tell me.
[27/03 1:07 am] Yang Tan: I'm fine here. Sorry for not being in touch with you for so many days. [27/03 1:22 am] Yang Tan: No. Actually it's not because of I am busy. Just dunno how to face you. I had think of this many days. I think it's time for me to tell you bravely. I know it's my fault that make you fall in love with me, all the while I feel guilty cos you are too good which you should deserve better than what you have in a relationship. I know that you didn't expect more from me for time being. I wish we should just be friend. I know that you had been trying to help me to pass my hard time. I also know that you went to see my colleagues to discuss with them about my problems. You had done more than you could and I really don't think I deserve it cos I know I can never repay you that much. I hope you can except it that I can't be with you anymore because I have clear with what I want this time. You are a nice girl and you will find someone far better in the future. It's not worth to wasting time on me. Hope you can understand. I'm sorry. [27/03 1:33 am] Yang Tan: You never burden me. You had being the best for me but I can't keep you wait. That's wrong. [27/03 1:34 am] Yang Tan: I hope we can still be friend if you don't mind [27/03 1:34 am] Yang Tan: Sorry for hurting you again
i couldn't feel anything but i knew it will come to like this with him and about us so i couldn't feel anything, i just became numb about it.
Anyways, i have met someone during feb. I had some minor problem with the car side mirror and this person whom i have just met on the chat app he offer to help me and settle the payment. He send me to his friend workshop and to get it settle and that is how me and Kenneth became close afterwards 11th feb my car incident. 12th feb i saw his wechat moment post and i ask him who is it that he is hopping to meet one day and he say it was me, anyways i asked is he ok to meet for lunch since i was free to meet and he decided to meet for dinner and it was like kind of last min so i told him i can't promise about if i can for tonite so ya i tried and i got approve to go dinner so i told him and he went n plan for dinner at Enorme (italian restaurant near jaya33) which was kinda fancy dinner.
it was a great surprised on me coz i never expect the sweet msg and how much effort in finding this place for our first meeting and dinner together, it was a lovely dinner...
how special dinner it was from him, it was very thoughtful of him for putting effort in finding a nice restaurant for our first time meeting and that he paid for the meal as well. We chatted and to get to each other more, haha and i notice that he didnt really get to eat much so ya I'm guessing he prefer chinese food mostly and he isn't so bad so yeah... We had a second round hahaha went to ss2 for dessert but couldn't find that shop for it so we end up at kopitiam have a tong sui and fried noodle. As we chatted, i realize he isn't bad to be with and has a potential as a bf so ya he suddenly asked me do this consider as a date and i say yes. He was happy and smiling with that answer i gave and at the same time i kindda knew he likes me so i just kept quiet. I didnt tell him things about my family issues in details as i do not want to tell until I'm certain so ya, when we wanna go back home i had a phone call from my mother which the way i answer was bit weird and I'm sure he notice it but i kept quiet and didnt say.
So anyways after he send me home, he was like kindda wanna say something so i waited but i can see he was hesitating on something so i just gave up n kiss his cheek as a goodnight and thanks for everything, he was taken back n surprised of what i did and then he wanted to kiss my lips but i wasn't so sure so he decided to kiss my forehead. So ya after that we both been msging till late at night and he has to sleep coz of work so ya from that day on we have been talking to one another
Valentine was coming in 2 days but i did not go out with him because i went out on 12th feb so ya coz parents thingy... Eventually it became very clear and loud and he dare to admit his feelings towards me and in fb he went and told his friends and his family knows about me too. I was asked to come out for cny but i worried coz of an issues that happens and my parents gotten more pissed of so during cny i lay low didnt go out but work off the resubmission work badly and ya my whole cny suck but at least it was ok to pass time talking to him as I'm no longer in good terms with Yang. During my cny we have been talking to each other it was good, we kept messaging to each other and at times we will skype video each other. He went to have cny dinner with his family and guess what omg i was freaking shocked coz i receive a skype call and out of a blue i saw his niece @_@ was i was stun so ya spoke to the niece Eleia :) such a cutie then suddenly the whole family came to sneak what is going on and they saw me @_@ omg i was paiseh. Anyways after the video call end he msg me =.= wah sia i wanted to murder him. =.= i was not expecting all this so ya, the whole family knows about me and i was asked when am I'm gonna visit them.
during the whole cny, i notice he likes me and has a interest coz of the fb post and he admits about liking me. He asked me to be his gf on skype 28th feb and i agreed. He asked me whether i could attend his older sister wedding on 1st march, i had few problems with parents about going to the wedding and in the end i went for it. 1st march went attend his sister wedding, he came to pick me up and he introduce himself to my mom, so ya we arrived to his sister wedding place which was at oriental bouquet, while we were in the car he grab and pass me a plastic bag and the power bank he got from his supplier, i was fucking surprised the box i saw he, got me my instax mini camera. which he told me he is getting it for me coz saw i previously posted in wechat moments and he ask me why i wanted it and the reason was legit to him apparently and he went and got me a present.
i told him he shouldn't but he went and got it coz he say its something he wanna do and coz I'm his gf that he wanted to spoil me, take care of me, pamper, treat me as i should have been treated long ago and to protect me and etc. Dinner was good met all his family and i manage to see Eleia too :) ps this kid she will always look for me to skype during the cny when he went to visit his khaima.
We left dinner a bit early, coz he wanted to take me to somewhere so okay, we went to his place at subang jaya and then we were at somewhere near a park, he ask me do i trust him and i say yes and he say i have to blindfold myself and u have to trust me to walk. So i was blindfolded and i follow him walking slowly going up a steep hill and bumps and what not, until he say i need to carry u over coz of something =.=ll ahh i was stun so i got carry and then put me down. He told me to take of the blindfold and OMG FUCKING GOD I WAS FUCKING SHOCK N SURPRISED. i was standing at a court, with candles, ballon and BLOODY HELL there was people there. I was fucking shocked and i was so fucking paiseh, he really went and actually did a proposal to me to be his gf coz at that time i comment in fb about a proper propose which i told him later on its not needed but omg he really went and did it. I was so mad at him and happy and surprised and bloody hell i didnt know what to feel, should i be crying or laughing but i end up laughing and crying.
It was one hell of a surprised but i can see he really gives in effort and i am thankful for his gangs that help him with the setup :)
after the whole surprised thing, our officially together was on the day his sis wedding 1/3/2015
after all the proposal to me, we had to rush back to send me home but we went to one last stop. it was his working area oasis square, he showed me the water feature which i have not visited the place before so now i did. After few mins there he send me home, it was a great day and i happy day.
The next few days i went back to college and he went back to work and from there on's we are together and was so happy.
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