life event

while my cousin bro came over to spend time, i also had some conversation wit my hubby but again like we have some fights 

=,= i was waiting for hubby to come home n msg then he make me geram by saying =,= i just home then wanna go out again pulak -___________-

this conversation was so amusing, as usual we have our daily conversation everyday and night…before wanting to head to bed, this is what he told me, hahaha i was laughing my head off :) war with a cockroach pulak …. aiyoo this hubby so cute 

i was moody coz i couldn't see my husband, so i was showing my emotions at him a bit and this is wat happen from his reply, ya in a way we argue again, and this time i really blame myself ...

i reply to him that i will not disturb and i guess we both shouldn't see each other until he can get his work on track and tat he achieve his goal, i also send a voice note to him, i was upset and hurt so much n was crying until he reply me this after he was done with work….

after all of this we make up, i suddenly go a really sadden news

when my mom came back from the hospital she told us about grandpa and what the doctor explain to her about putting a tube for grandpa  as it will stress the body more and they will not want to insert the tube on him, when the time comes that he could no longer breathe on his own so they told my mom, uncle and aunt to be prepare when the worse comes, my mom was thinking we should go visit my grandpa on tuesday after our classes, but around 12am ish tuesday my mom flew to the hospital and i was gonna prepared to sleep till bro came in tell me grandpa was GONE

At first i couldn't hear then i ask again and bro repeated and i could not believe wat i heard, i didnt want to believe it, i never wanted to believe that my grandpa was GONE…

When bro left my room, i close my door and cry like SHIT, i cry so badly, i was so devastated about it, me bro and sis cry so much…we all sat in my room crying and hugging……. it was so upsetting that grandpa was gone just like that, then my mom called and she was crying so much too and she told us to go and sleep tmrw we have to attend classes, it was already 2am i called my hubby but he was like blur blur sleeping and i was so hurt and i told him grandpa was gone, the next morning…. bro left for his classes and i send sis to classes as my parents need to go down settle hospital and grandpa ….

after dropping my sis to school, i headed to college but i was so upset i didnt attend tutorial but i went and msg to some classmates to inform my teachers that i can't come as my grandpa pass away this morning so ya i didnt went to attend as i was in no mood. i was at centrepoint mcd upstairs sitting down

as i was so tired and my eyes was swollen and red from all the crying and didnt sleep well at all.

my hubby watsapp me in the morning and i told him i skip my tutorial as I'm upset and no mood to attend tutorial as grandpa was gone, so my hubby told me to come to his house and ask me to rest there. 

i went to hubby home, and slept a bit together with him, in his arms, hugging me to sleep and kissing my fore-head and my eyes and trying to cheer me up and letting me know he is there for me always… i slept a while then hubby woke me up to tell me that he has to go to KL for appointment at 11am so ya i left and went home while he goes for his appointment, when i got home hubby msg and told me i should rest a bit knowing i was tired and i cried a lot. so ya i slept till before it was time to fetch sis 3.30pm 

so ya mom came back with dad and told us that we have to go to grandparents places and do praying things, my parents took 1 car and we took 1 car coz for sure will be very late, so ya we were there helping do prayers and all that

while my siblings were busy helping to burn the papers, and along with my cousin's, i went and help look after my cousins children, since i can't burn the paper as i was wearing my contact lens 

my niece's and nephew =,= aiyoo drive me nuts, haha so noisy and kepala penning i tell u but oh well they are just small kids, i send hubby pic of those three and he was laughing at me for having headache wit these three noisy monkey :) but ya

hahaha so cute isn't it my niece's and nephew hahah ya but really will give u headache @_@

on wednesday bro n sis went to school again but i didnt went to college, so ya after i send my sis to school i came back and slept again coz i was really tired, and i skip lunch then i went pick up my sis again, this time we also took 2 cars but this time it involve the grand-children, so me bro sis and my cousins together wit my uncle and 2 aunts and my mom did the prayer things to grandpa again…we were all done 11pm or so for prayers then we stay back to help burn papers and etc things until so late like 2am ish by the time we are home it was like 2.30am ish to 3am then clean up and sleep around 4pm woke up at 6.30am =.= left the house at 7am got there 7.30am before 8am 

thursday :( day to bury grandpa, before we left the house at 10am we all again did the prayers to send grandpa off but grandma isn't allow to follow us to bury grandpa…

it was so hurtful to go bury grandpa, we all took the bus to rawang and we pray again and went up to bury grandpa…. walao it was so upsetting, we toss the earth to grandpa and had to walk down no looking back and we all cried so badly, after all was done, we took the bus and went back home, everyone was tired..

when we got home, we ate lunch at grandparents house, and we rested a bit before heading back home 

we all bath then slept till the next day friday, were we all rested but went to see grandma again in the evening and for dinner too…. while my parents had a long chit chat =,= it was already like sudah 2am  aiyoo the next morning saturday we gotta wake up early to go see grandpa and pray =.=

guess wat this morning none can wake up and we woke up late sudah 8am pulak aiyoo

so we all rush, to go buy the flowers then to grandma …

we went to see grandpa and gave him food n pray for him, then we went to lunch in sai kong wit my relative and came back to grandma places, and sat there short while then we came home and slept..

and i just saw my teacher posted i got presentation on tuesday for project 3 and i was like FUCK LA this time really SHIT and DIE la i didnt do anything at all, i was so damn busy with mourning and grandpa things till i didnt nothing at all, so right now I'm gonna have to die cincai do work really damn FUCK